Friday, October 24, 2008


My sweet daughter,

Oh where Oh where does the time go? As I box up itty bitty socks, little nightgowns and all sorts of bitty baby things I am realizing you are growing up. Oh its a harsh reality, one I am not yet ready to face. It seemed like an ETERNITY to get you here. In our eyes you are truly a miracle and we feel so blessed to have you in our lives. What was one of my hardest trials produced one of my biggest blessings. You. I have a testimony that "Our time is not always the Lords time." Before I realized this truth though, my heart would just ache when I saw a pregnant girl. Every girl around me was pregnant, just had a baby, or had a family. For some time it hurt I allowed these thoughts to hurt those around me. I became very angry. I wanted so badly to experience pregnancy. I was so absorbed in what I did not have and how everyone else had what I wanted. It was not fair to me. Why could other girls just WHAM get pregnant but your daddy and I not? That's when I started to gain a testimony that "Our time is not always the Lords time." I would like to tell you that I woke up one morning and realized this but not so. When the Lord finally decided it was our time the 'magical stick' FINALLY said what I had hoped for for a LONG time. PREGNANT. I knew that our struggle was only half over. I needed to get this baby here safe. At our 7 week check a hemorrhage was found (i kinda freaked) but they said just pelvic rest and it should dissolve. At our next check up which was only a few weeks later the hemorrhage was huge it grew to 7 cm! That was like bigger than your precious body! Now they gave me bed rest, no work no anything just worrying about you! AHAHAH I kinda went crazy. How could this happen it took so long to even get pregnant. I am sad to say my faith started to falter. I prayed and prayed and prayed and I was renewed in knowing that the Lord knows what is best and I have to have faith and truly trust in his plan for me. The hemorrhage slowly dissolved and I had a healthy pregnancy. I loved being pregnant with you. I loved feeling your little kicks and turns,and dreaming what you would look like. I was able to get through the ups and downs of pregnancy, because I knew it was a blessing to be pregnant! I will never forget the sweet feeling I had when you were finally placed in my arms. You are a miracle baby in our eyes and we are so grateful for you. So as you grow from my little baby I once longed for to a big girl that is 6 months old. As I replace those itty bitty clothes with what seem like BIG GIRL ones, I reflect on the past and am excited for the future. So Mykah I hope I can teach you faith and patience and love for this gospel that brings us joy and happiness. I am so blessed to be entrusted with raising such a special spirit. We chose to have you, to become parents. I longed to hold my sweet baby and here you are. I love you Mykah Girl. With all my heart. Stay sweet and true to yourself and always put the lord first in all you do and you will find true happiness. Love, Mom

5 comments:

Todd, Christy, and Co. said...

What a sweet letter for cute little Mykah! You are such a good Mommy- it's been fun watching you grow! We definately need to get together more! There is no excuse now! Love ya tons!

Stew and Traci said...
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Stew and Traci said...

I cant explain what I am wanting to say, so I will just write and say what a miracle she truly is, what a blessing and joy she is. Please always tell her how much Aunt Traci Loves her and will always be there for her and how I pray for her. She is so precious and I prayed so much for you when you were trying to get pregnant and when you were pregnant we are so grateful for her little spirit in our lives. We love you sweet Mykah baby!

Becca Penrod said...

Thank you so much for sharing this Shara. You are such an amazing example to me, Please know that I shed tears with you as I saw you and Todd struggle to get your precious angel here. You are amazing parents, and I can tell how much you love her, as well as our Heavenly Father. Thank you for sharing your testimony with me. You are wonderful!

Amy F. said...

Oh my goodness, I am so crying right now! That was really sweet. I'm really touched to hear you share your story. That was definitely a hard trial to go through. What strong parents you are having gone through that.
That was one of the best moments in my life when you told me you were pregnant. I was elated! Being newly pregnant myself I wanted that so badly for you, and wahla! I would pray each night for you and Todd to get pregnant. Mykah feels like such a part of me. I'm so grateful for her!